Heeeey guys, hope ya’ll have been living your best lives, positively and gracefully. Well today I’m here to talk about the dark. It is a topic that I feel the need to address because most of us are fighting with the darkness within us; I know I am and it is really not easy especially when you are trying to move on or build yourself back together. It is a thief of joy.
The kind of darkness I am talking about is just like the literal kind where you are not able to see and it gets frustrating when you want to do something. Imagine it was at night and there was no source of light and you wanted to walk but you cannot see where you are going? Wouldn’t that be frustrating? Well the challenges you go through in your life are the darkness. I have already talked about how to cope with challenges, how to heal, how to trust in God for your ceilings while making the floors and how to reclaim your value. Now I want to talk about what comes after all that.
Once bitten twice shy. Cancer patients that heal always have that fear of the cancer coming back and they spend their whole lives being cautious and careful trying to prevent it. When you go through a financial crisis and you manage, you try as hard as you can not to go back there. When you break up with someone, let’s say because they hurt you, took you for granted or even abused you physically or emotionally, you get your guard up and promise yourself never to let anyone do that to you again. All these scenarios are just but a few of the forms of darkness we overcome in our lives.
After we emerge victorious and save ourselves from such situations, we move onward with positivism and hunger for bigger and better things but there is still that fear, that anxiety, it’s like a little voice in your ear reminding you of the pain in the past, or it’s a scar that reminds you of all you went through. I will give you an example from my own personal experience, every time I feel weak or dizzy especially if I am standing, I start to fear like what if my heart condition was not fully healed. It is crazy. Every time I feel like I am beginning to have a crush on someone, I remember the heartbreak and disappointment I went through in a past toxic relationship and I quickly shut it down even if the person is genuine.
That is not even half of it, when I finally allowed myself to be wooed into a relationship, I would do something for this person or be around this person and the voice in my ear would be like, He’s just going to hurt you like the other one did, what makes you think he is any different, and this haunted me for days. The fear, the anxiety and the ego because I was not about to let the same thing happen to me again but then, if I kept dwelling on these which were just scars in my mind, I would not be able to move forward, I’d freak out every time I’d feel dizzy and maybe I’m just tired or hungry, I’d restrict myself from enjoying my relationship just because I went for the wrong person before. So I turned it into something positive.
The fact that I survived the darkness before was for a reason. The darkness exists to help me appreciate the light; you will only appreciate the light when you know what it means to be in the dark. Honestly, ya’ll know I get these topics from somewhere, it was a movie/ animation called wonder land. I realized I was going through this period where I would fear or get anxious that past experiences would happen again so I’d stress myself into trying to control my life enough to make sure it does not happen again and instead I’d forget to enjoy the good things in my life.
Do not let fear do that to you. Even after all the things that come with the night, the sun will always come up in the morning. Enjoy everything in your life. Do not restrict yourself. Enjoy that good health by eating great food and doing things you couldn’t do before. Enjoy that relationship instead of focusing on past break ups and what led to them. Enjoy that money you have now responsibly instead of saving it all in the bank waiting for a rainy day because honey if you died right now, that money would only buy you a suit and a grave. Don’t get me wrong, be cautious, do not make the same mistakes because stupidity is doing the same thing the same way over and over again expecting different results.
That is it for today! Until next time, take care.